Today is the 23rd July 2007 . Sigh, should i say i had a bad day or should i say i made my day bad ? Sigh . Marketing presentation and Economics test today . Sighs again . I screwed it up . Damn .

Marketing was bad because i had less than an hour to prepare of what i am to say . Powerpoint slides were only ready this morning . That's what we always do, till the eleventh hour and we start to rehearse . Bad, i know, but the person doing it has to be taken into consideration that he is doing ALL the powerpoint slides, ALL the report and he's gonna present and take the Economics test the same as we are . Then came my turn to present, and i can actually pronounce one word wrongly despite the fact that Martin corrected me a minute ago . Psychological ! That's the word . Hmph ! I can pronounced it as fee-scho-lo-gi-cal when the perfect pronounciation should be sai-cho-lo-gi-cal . Clever i am right, i know . I'm an imbecile too . Lol . Other than that, i just keep on missing words here and there because i'm so nervous . Phew, thank god that it didn't went too badly or else, i might be thinking of getting myself a full-time job now . Why is it that you may ask ? 'cause i told myself that if i ever fail and forward ( repeat ) any module, any, i'll quit school . Yes, i'll quit school and you heard me right . Perhaps you're thinking that i'm placing high expectations on myself, but that's what i do to attain what i want in life . Few months ago when i handed my Mom a form for her signature, she looked at my handwriting and said that i was a perfectionist . I kinda agree . She interpret that for everything in my life, i require a 7 out of 10 for every of them . I agree, and i told her that the 7 might be changing to a 8 now . That's why i took Accountancy Diploma, for my future sake . Because i wanna have my own car, my own condominium, my own office, my own maid and i wanna earn real big bucks, not in Singapore currency, but US or pounds . Yeah, so far, it's just this . And i think Mom is getting suspicious of me in the case of BGR . Haha . 'cause she've been asking who i hang out with lately when i inform her of my absence at home . She'll ask who i'm going out with, girl or boy, how many pax, really, or am i lying this sort of thing . Haha . To be truthful, i wouldn't hesitate to tell her the truth if she happens to ask . I'm having a crush . Okay, i don't wanna dwell into that topic before i start to "emo" again .

Back here, then Marketing went past and we've got 5 hours and 15 minutes for a break before Economics test begin, canteen was full, so were all the benches that we usually sit around during breaks . We decided to have lunch at Suki Sushi Cineleisure . My god, i was officially full for once more after starving myself for months due to improper eating habits . Then went back to school for a short study and we took the Economics test . Two topics tested, Elasticity and Production Cost . I'm well prepared for Elasticity and i only laid some fingers on Production Cost, that's it . So, well, i kinda did my best during the test, just hope that i at least got a B . T_T .

Time now : 2357 hours . I manage to talk to him again . =DDD ! And we chatted quite a bit . Hope it lasts, but then, i hope that i don't think too much again, just in case the ending is not what i wanted, i'll go crazy . Sigh .

Right, gonna turn in soon . Wish my luck . Ciao and nights ! ~ =)